Fudge

I have been trying to lose my baby weight for the past 90 days. I have starved myself, eaten nothing but soup for dinner for weeks, drank only coffee for breakfast, counted my weight watchers points, and have lost 33 pounds. However, these last 10 pounds just won't budge. I do not have the type of body composition where the weight just falls off. People have been saying "You look good" but then they add the caveat "for having a baby three months ago". Which means, I still have a fat butt. So this week, I temporarily gave up. I have eaten cookies, cake, and pizza. This morning for breakfast, I had a large piece of chocolate fudge for breakfast. I feel I needed a week off from dieting. This weekend, I start back on my cycle of torture again to lose weight. French women don't get fat. American women do. I don't want to be a "muffin top" wife.

This year, I will be 37. I feel that it is time for a makeover! I am having a late 30's beauty crisis. I should be content to just be healthy. However, I am not. The quest for perfection has begun. Any beauty tips that anyone has would be greatly appreciated.

Three people that I know are reading the book "Eat, Pray, and Love, by Elizabeth Gilbert. A link to a blurb about the book is off to the right. Oprah had her on the show one day, and I really liked her. Mom said that I HAD to read this book!! My friend Margie lent me the book on Audio, and I have been listening to it for the past few days. It is a really wonderful book. More than wonderful, but I can't find a word better than wonderful to describe her style of writing. I am listening to her talk about her travels in Italy right now. Anyone who is reading this blog, has GOT to read this. Really.

While I feel that the writer is very self absorbed, and destroyed her marriage, her husband, and her life in the 'burbs' so that she could follow her one true passion of traveling around the world, she is very funny and witty. It makes for very interesting reading, or in my case, listening. It is a big sacrifice to get married and have kids. Before marriage, I had a job where I traveled almost 95% of the time. Where some people drove to work, I would fly to work every week. It was awesome. I really loved San Francisco, Pleasanton, CA, Madison, WI, Chicago, and Pittsburgh, PA. I loved the night life of all these cities. I was so free, and cultured. I shopped at all the trendy places. I tried lots of different restaurants. My love for Sushi came from San Francisco. I miss that life sometimes, and it seems so far removed from my life right now, that it is almost hard for me to believe I once lived like that. I am envious that my cousin is going to China as part of her MBA program. How cool would that be?

But I know that settling down was the right choice for me. When I look at my kids faces and they are smiling and happy, and I have a husband who loves me, every sacrifice I have ever made for them is worth it. I am glad my life revolves around their happiness. I have no nightlife, and have not for some time. We go to bed at 9pm now. I don't think I have stayed up past midnight since Sidney has been born. My friend, whose kids are a little bit older, said that now the kids are a little older, she has some control back. Some day, Craig and I will be able to go to a bar, or go out and dance, past midnight. I can't wait!! But for now, I am content to have everyone in our bedroom, watching a movie and playing barbies, or doggies, or reading books before we go to sleep. These kids are our future!! I pray for their safety every day.

I am going to get a new camera very soon. My old camera does not support my new laptop's OS.

By the way, has anyone ever made a diaper cake? Instructions would be nice...